Julia Rivers
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"The most beautiful things cannot be seen or touched,
They must be felt within the heart

Julia Rose-Joy
Born Friday 3rd November 2006 @ 26 weeks gest.
12.00pm @ Rotorua hospital New Zealand
Joined the angels Friday 3rd November 2006 @ 12.00pm
1 lb 8 oz
30cm long
Eyes that never saw the world.

Julia was going to be our last child as we already had a four year old son. It was a very different pregnancy to Bayden (Big Brother) as early on in the pregnancy it was discovered that I had anti k antibodies in my blood. After the initial visit with the specialist it was decided that I would need monthly blood test and that I could stay under midwife care. We decided that we wouldn't find out the sex of the baby, but I had a feeling that you would be a girl. The rest of the pregnancy went well, despite morning sickness until 20 weeks. After much deliberation we decided on names. Julia, after your great grandmother.
 Sadly two weeks before you were born we suddenly lost your grandmother (Daddy's Mother).
Once we returned home from Hastings, I went for my usual monthly visit with the midwife, Dinie.
It was Tueseday 31 October and a day I will never forget.
After trying for ten minutes to find your heartbeat, Dinie sent me to Rotorua hospital to be put on their monitor. On my way up to the hospital I rung your Daddy and told him what was happening and to come up to the hospital. I was getting really worried. After arriving at the hospital and being put on the monitor for fifiteen minutes they were still unable to find your heartbeat. They wanted to send me for an emergency scan, I asked them to wait for your Dad to arrrive, but they wanted to get it done straight away. So off I went with the registrar doctor to the radiology department, with my mind spinning. What seemed to take hours only took half an hour and I was given the devastating news. We'd lost you a week and a half before (around the same time as your Nana). I didn't hear the rest as I broke down in tears. Your Daddy finally arrived and we hugged and cried some more. I asked Dinie, the midwife, if they knew what had happened and she said it looked like Fetal Hydrops. A specialist came to see us and when asked if we could have a c-section we were told that we would have to deliver you naturally. We ended up going home that night with you still with us.
The following day, Wednesday 1st November, we went back to the hospital so I could be given the tablets to stop hormone production. Daddy and I talked the night before and we decided that we wanted an autopsy performed to find out why we had lost you. By this time your other Nana (Mummy's Mother) had arrived to give us the support we needed.
Spent the next day, Thursday 2nd November, at home. I kept thinking I'd wake up and it would all be a horrible nightmare, but it wasn't to be.
I went back to the hospital on Friday 3rd November to be induced. Your labour only took two hours and the contractions were 45 seconds long and 30 seconds apart. At 12.00pm after two pushes you came into this world. Your Nana (Mummy's mother) was with us when you were born and she said the words I'll never forget, "It's  a little girl and she's peaceful, she looks like she's sleeping". My thoughts had been right. You were wrapped in the plastic sheet and handed to me. At last I got to hold my little girl. Daddy took photos of you and we got one of you, Mummy and Daddy. We also got your hand print.
Your aunties Fiona, Sarah and Anna brought Bayden up to see you and share the precious time we had with you. We had you with us for three hours before you were taken away for your flight to Wellington, before you left I said "Goodbye sweetheart, I love you".
Once you were gone we were able to go home, it didn't feel right leaving the hosptial without you...
Once home plans were made for your funeral. We were going to hold a small service for you in Hastings. You were going to be cremated and placed with your Nana who had passed away at the same time.
I finally got to see you again on Monday 6th November at the funeral home. You looked so tiny in your little casket, but looked very beautiful in the outfit we'd picked out for you. Your funeral was to be held the next day.

The day of your funeral ....
It's ironic that it should be a perfectly sunny day on one of the saddest days of our lives. During the service I kept hold of daddy's hand and looked at a picture of the three of us.
After the service we were standing outside and Bayden released a single pink helium balloon for you.

To Our Precious Wee Angel Julia,
We love you and you will always be in our hearts until we meet again.

A few thank yous,
To My Darling husband Phill,
Thank you deeply for being a tower of strength and for all of your love. This was a difficult time for you as well. I love you heaps. 

To Bayden,
You are the best son in the world, it's a shame you didn't get to keep your "Oscar Baby"

To Mum ( Glenis)
I couldn't have got through this without you there by my side. It's true that every girl always needs her Mum.

To Fiona,
Thank you for making the journey to come and meet your niece, and for all of your love and support.

To Sarah and Anna,
Thank you for taking on the care of Bayden. It was a relief to know he was so well looked after.

To Dinie,
Thank you for your awesome care and understanding, you're an excellent midwife. There wasn't anything you could do to have changed the outcome. 

There are so many more people to thank and you all know who you are. There are no words to express how we are feeling and there never will be. Please don't be afraid to mention Julia's name, she is very much part of our family and always will be. 


(It was later discovered through the autopsy results that all it took was for 3mls of Julia's blood to pass over the placenta for my antibodies to cause the fetal hydrops, unfortunately there was nothing that could have been done to prevent this from happening. There is also a 50% chance of the fetal hydrops occurring again as now that I have the antibocies they will always be present.).

The music that is playing on this site is called
Gentle, Gentle (Life of your life)
 By Rebecca Lavelle.
It has been played on the tv programme
McLeod's Daughters.

Gentle  gentle sing to your child
Your companion for such a long long time
Beneath your heart
Her heart beats strong
Life of your life
Is safe in your arms

Touch her face
You gave her form
Child of this earth
Child of this sky
You are her voice
She has your eyes
This is her gift
The thread of life

Give her grace
Give her peace 
Let her be strong 
Let her be kind
She is your soul
And you are her strength
Bless her and guide her all of her life

Gentle gentle sing to your child
Your companion for such a long long time
Beneath your heart 
Her heart beats strong
Life of your life 
Is safe in your arms

To our angel girl Julia...
1 today!!







Tributes and Condolences
Three years ago today   / Carley Rivers (Mummy)
To my special angel girl Julia I have so much that I want to say to you but dont know where to begin I think the most important thing is is that I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for choosing me to be your Mummy. I will never forget you...  Continue >>
Thank you   / Carley Rivers (Mummy)
Hiya Angel Girl, just wanted to pop in and say a huge thank you to you for looking after your little sister Jessica so well, and for delivering her safely into our waiting arms. We know that although she can never replace you, you will always be ou...  Continue >>
Hiya sweet angel girl   / Carley Rivers (Mum)
Hiya sweet angel girl, it has been a long time since I wrote to you. Alot has happened around here and I can feel your influence all around me. I am now pregnant with you little brother or sister, and I know that until the time comes for him/her to b...  Continue >>
One year memories   / Glenis Cunningham (grandmother)
One year go, is a day that I will never forget as long as I live. There I was with your Mummy and Daddy, supporting them in what was to be the most traumatic moment in their lives. You were born so peaceful, having already flown away with the angels....  Continue >>
One year ago today   / Carley Rivers (Mummy)
To My DaughterIt has been a year today since you left usAnd not a day goes by that we dont think of you.We wonder what you would have been like,Who you would have resembled.We will never hear the sound of your laughter, Or soothe your worries an...  Continue >>
Nearly a year  / Carley Rivers (Mummy)    Read >>
I miss you sweet angel  / Carley Rivers (Mummy)    Read >>
Sweet Julia Rose-Joy  / Sarah Numan (mummy to Noah & Hope Numan )    Read >>
Six Months today  / Carley Rivers (Mummy)    Read >>
Julia-Rose-Joy / Dinie Brady (Midwife)    Read >>
Julia's Due date  / Carley Rivers (Mummy)    Read >>
Julia Rose-Joy  / Glenis Cunningham (Nana)    Read >>
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Her legacy
angel banner  
Words for To Where You Are by Josh Groban  

To Where you are  Josh Groban

Who can say for certain
Maybe you’re still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You’re still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn’t faith believing
All power can’t be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
’cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

I know you’re there
A breath away’s not far
To where you are

Christmas in Heaven  
"Christmas in Heaven"

'Tis Christmas in Heaven
What a beautiful sight!
It's my first one here;
Everything is all right.
The crib is adorned
With the brilliance of stars,
Wisemen have come
From Venus and Mars.
I've met all our dear ones
Who preceded us here;
The reunion was lovely,
An event full of cheer.
And tonight we'll all gather,
In reverence we'll kneel,
For the Babe in the cradle
Up in Heaven is Real.
I think of my family
that I left behind
And I pray that your Christmas
Is as blessed as mine
Please shed no more tears,
For my soul is at rest,
Just love one another;
Live life to its best.
Yes, It's Christmas In Heaven,
So I've heard them say,
Yet, Christmas In Heaven
Happens every day.
A Christmas Poem for Julia  
My Christmas In Heaven

I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below
With tiny lights, like Heaven's stars, reflecting on the snow
The sight is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear
For I am spending Christmas from up above this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear
But the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you, the joy their voices bring,
For it is beyond description, to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart
But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.
So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas
with all the other angels this year.

I sent you each a special gift, from my heavenly home above.
I sent you each a memory of my unending love.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear
Remember, I am spending Christmas
with all the other angels this year.
Author Unknown
Words to A Mother's Prayer by Celine Dion  
Celine Dion "A Mother's Prayer"

I pray you'll be my eyes
And watch her where she goes
And help her to be wise
Help me to let go

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe

I pray she finds your light
And holds it in her heart
As darkness falls each night
Remind her where you are

Every mother's prayer
Every child knows
Need to find a place
Guide her to a place
Give her faith so she'll be safe

Lead her to a place
Guide her with your grace
To a place where she'll be safe
Julia's Photo Album
Julia with Mummy and Daddy
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